My outlook on life changed two years ago today. A dear friend suddenly died at the age of 27, and your life must change after that.
Two years ago, this day was one of shock and deep loss. A year ago, after a long year of acceptance and commencement of the healing process, a day of reflection was born. I know that December 15th will always be a day of reflection for me and the close friends that shared in this special woman's life. How can it not be?
I know that I will suffer great losses throughout my life, and honestly, my friend was not the first. When family members and other friends died, I suffered. When my maternal Grandfather died, I was almost inconsolable. The difference on this day two years ago was that my friend had so much of her life ahead of her. I was at place in my life to truly understand what it means to lose - and know about the idea that you should take advantage of every day, because you don't know how many you have. And yet, at the moment she died, my friend had everything she had ever wanted.
She lived life to the fullest, attacking her dreams with a verocity that I can only attempt to emulate. She is a constant source of inspiration to me, and I hope that I can achieve in my lifetime what she did in hers. She had love, happiness, success and self-fulfillment, and so many dreams to continue striving for.
So, on this day of reflection, I am thankful for what I have - fabulous husband, wonderful family and friends, success, education and a comfortable life. As of today, I am realigning my life. I will no longer be complacent, and I will chase my dreams. I will keep in better touch with those who have shaped my life, and let them know how thankful I am for them. I'm going to be a better me, and be happy with that me I mold.
Eleanor Roosevelt said, "the future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams." While this has been a mantra of mine for many years, today it means so much more. Today I actually strive to start achieving it.